Mixed Bag of a week..........

Well last week at weigh in i gained 2 1/2 pounds and FB lost 1. It was a result in eating bad bad bad food which i no longer care for, as i thinking eating too much of it has out me off it for awhile. We did not go to weigh in this week because;
a) I really did not want to go was too tired.
b) FB was still unwell.
c) I had no desire to face class, or even feel like i am enjoying it anymore.
d) I am still thinking of a fourth excuse.

To be honest i have lost my motivation and inspiration for eating plan, so i have gone back to basics. Hopefully this will inspire me.
I think alot to do with this way of thinking is not being 100%, im struggling to think of what to cook, then when brain does engage i find it hard work rarther than enjoying cooking like i usually do.
Then the icing on cake arrived I went to my doctor, who i really get on with and he says I haven't lost any weight since November by his scales - How depressing is that!!! , my Slimming World book says different! This doesn't count with my Doctor, as his records say a different thing. Sighs....
My Doctor is now treating me for panic attacks and stress, I am unsure where the stress comes from but he says I am showing common effects of this-:
obsessed about not being late
talking to strangers or in a strange place i go red/flushed stutter
my heart rate goes up
don't like going to places i do not know on own.
I even did this with my doctor, he said he saw it with his own two eyes. What a mess to get into and why, I have been a confident person most of my life , what on earth is going on.
So guess whatI have to join a stress class (back to school huh!) and he upped some medication I am on.I am going to rattle lol! On the downside I read small print of medication it can put weight on!!!! Ermmm............. oh dear.....
Guess what he said next, this will all be resolved loosing weight.
Well I am trying to help in this matter but it was not what i needed to hear right now.

Then .. wait for it.............I went to my practice nurse for my weekly jab of Anovex , she said lets see how you are doing on the weight front , my mouth fell open, on I jumped and guess what her scales were same as slimming world and I have lost weight , she said well done , I then explained how my Doctor appointemnet went she did not know quite what to say..

Also she perscribed me two books , yes perscribed. You get them from your local libray with a perscription. Was a new thing to me but self help has got to beat tablets any day!!

All in all a mixed week of Ups and Downs.

I am currently reading through Expository thoughts on Mark at moment . How and useful it has been to espicially throughout this week. The Lord Directs us without us knowing it, to what we need.